well, it took two and a half weeks, but it finally happened: the blog that was supposed to be about all the cool shit i do to distract myself from the sisyphean feat of finishing up school and being an adult has turned into a depressing trudge through all of the shit i'm trying to push up the hill and turn into a degree.
now all i gots is lots of downers. yaahhh! well fuck you, you keep reading, cause you love me and even my shittiest days are at least kind of interesting, and what were you gonna do with that five minutes, anyway?
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basically, the beef today is that i'm realizing i'm a) not getting out of this semester without at least one shitty grade, which is a suck for the GPA, a suck for this delusion i've been carrying around about me being able to finish things with the same gusto that starts them up, a suck because the bitch of it is that i've been working my ass off harder than i ever have in my life, and b) it's going to be like this forever.
i'm never going to be out in front of the to-do list again. i am now slave to the list that grows in almost unbelievable heaps and mounds daily.
fml.
i was going to draw a picture for this post to redeem some of the suck, but i can't. this thing just needs to sink.
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